2004. A new year. And another opportunity for me to resolve to do "it" better, or differently. This has been my New Year's Resolution for many a year. And--like most people I know, or imagine--I usually don't--do it better. Or too differently.
Well, I have to "stop"! Which means--sufferer of procrastination that I am--that I have to start. Get busy, busier. Get over not being as perfect as I think I can or should be. Get beyond my critics, of which I am the worst and--as a cocky and sexy twenty-something said to me a few weeks ago--"face your fears."
It is time for me to be. Be the writer/author that lives inside me. I know can do it. Really. Enough people have told me so, and tell me, still. But, well, it just feels so goddamn hard sometimes. I start, pause, resume, then stop. Start again (something different), then pause...edit, and stop again. Start, edit...abandon. You know what I'm saying? It's a cycle that run its course.
And here I am again on another January 1st (at 3:33 a.m.) wondering how can I just do it. Do it better and do it more often, but mostly, just how I can do it and feel good about doing it: Writing damnit!
The ideas, essays, critiques, stories--and the book!--are there, here, locked inside my head, my computer and my file drawers, waiting to be cracked open. All that's needed is a steady turning of the key. Can I do it? Yes. Will I do it? Well, I want to. This is resolution numero uno (of many). And this blog entry (being written as my bed nearby taunts me with the comfort of a good night's sleep) is another beginning.
Darrell , I’m also a procrastinating writer aka ..I’ve finished and incompleted many short stories and poems. My father is an Author and has copy written many poems and is working getting a Book Published. My advice is to constantly build your craft through the Literature of Some of your most favorite writers and to possibly consider Self Publishing..I read in your Storm Blog the authors that you admire..Going to the Library to read some of the unfamilar writers previously mentioned, with hopes of sharing my thoughts and opinions from a more anaytical point of view..
A Man You Half Way Know! M.Thomas
Posted by: M.Thomas at September 12, 2005 07:58 AMHappy New Year Darrell;
I hear you and admire your resolve to write. do not be so selfish and deprive the rest of us of your genius… Heck I am making a poor attempt at it too… I already know that I am poor at this-writting that is, and it will take an eternity for me to get good enough which i hope practice does make perfect at least descent in my case.
My Dear Twin, you are light years a head of where i need to be in writting. Of course you will have you share of critics and self doubt but just write… Write Darrell … write some more… and when you think you have nothing to write about start all over again…. I think i stole that from someone… lol
Write Darrell …. WRITE!
Much Love, Ink and Paper!
Peace Always!
Philippe
Posted by: Pyoruba at January 1, 2004 01:57 PMHappy New Year to ya. You’re not alone in your resolution. I’m supposed to be bigger, stronger, and faster this uear. Let’s hope it works out. I got your back.
Posted by: ej at January 1, 2004 12:27 PM